I believe every teenager has their own stories, which no one knows about. Some things that they choose to keep to self, some things that they fail to describe it into words and decide to just keep it bottled up. I completely understand how it feels because well, as everyone generally knows, I'm also a teenager.
I've been through depression, emotional breakdowns, emotional insecurities, fears and extreme sadness all alone. Thousands of emotions have been here, deep down inside of me, ever since i stepped into teenage life. I've been searching for words that could ignite my vicious enthusiasm back, but sadly, i still haven't found them.
Someone walked into my life and broke through my wall and ever since, all kinds of fear started to shroud my mind and soul. I wish to gain lion hearted courage, so that i wouldn't have to face hesitation and indecision, i wish i could throw away all the doubts and fears that have been crowding upon me for so long.
At some point in our lives, we teenagers WAKE UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT WITH THOUSAND OF EMOTIONS, followed by an EMPTINESS inside us. Feeling all worthless and nobody loves us now and nobody would ever do and suicide thoughts would appear. The thought of not being good enough for everyone and everything around slowly breaks the vicious enthusiasm deep inside us.
There's totally nothing we could do and the best thing to do in this circumstance is to wake somebody else up to make all the feelings disappear for a little while. Here's to the kids who overthink everything in the middle of the night and have to go through an emotional breakdown.
There are days when all we want to do is just to stand under the shower head, gently turn on the tap and simply let the water trickle down every inch of our body. There are days when all we want to do is to lock the door, jump into a bed, curl up into a ball and simply CRY OUR EYES OUT.
Many people say crying wouldn't solve any problem, it's undoubtedly true. But for some unusual reasons, crying could make me a little better. Well, committing suicide wouldn't solve any problem either. Plus, it's a sin to do so.
Advices:
We may not be living under the same roof, but under the same skies, which God owns. Trust me, it's just another test in our life. YOU'RE NOT ALONE, MY FRIEND.
